I knew that breastfeeding was going to hard, and I knew it was going to take some getting used to, but I don't think anything could have prepared me for what a battle this was going to be.
Let me start by saying that I have never once wanted to give up. It is hard and I have cried about it and lost sleep over it, but I really want this to work, so I am trying my hardest to stay dedicated and committed to making it work.
Seth had some latching problems in the beginning which caused some cracks and bleeding. I have seen the LC a couple of times and things seemed to work perfectly when we were there with her. Seth would be calm and relaxed and latch perfectly. As soon as we would get home, he would be thrashing around, pulling away, and would suck so hard, tears would come to my eyes.
We have finally worked out our latching problems. I have been trying to wake him and feed him more often. He seems less hungry and less eager to attack me like a baracuda. Now that we have all of those problems worked out, I am pretty sure I have thrush.
Seth and I have appointments scheduled tomorrow and Thursday to make sure and get the proper treatment.
In the mean time, I am going to have to trust everyone that this is going to get easier, and just keep pushing through.
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.
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I promise it does get better! With my son it was about 7 weeks but we had a lot of problems!... but I promise, it does get easier and much more enjoyable!! You are amazing for pushing through! Hang in there!
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